The setbacks of November

I created my own misery in November. I did not take my own advice and ease into this new adventure. I did not take the time to listen to my body and give it what it needs. I did not allow my mind to slow down and let my body catch up. Everything fell apart on me.

When I first started feeling better I wanted to change everything overnight. I have this idea of the woman I want to be. A woman who is confident and crafty, who loves to road bike and be active. They are not hard things to achieve, you just do them right?! Well the more I pushed myself to be this woman the more I failed. I became very stressed out and mad. Eventually I got very emotional and just gave up. This was just harder than I had anticipated and the fibro was not helping. I thought since I had change so many things already, this was going to be the easy part. The set backs were not all from the fibro challenges, it was personality too. I have never had sustained energy for days on end. I have never had to prepare meals everyday. Even in the past year of slowing becoming "veganish" I still did not plan very well. I just ate a lot of sandwiches and salads. Now I was trying to change it all overnight. The fibro aspect as you can image intensified everything, so by the end of November, being medicated again was looking good. The problem is most fibro meds are anti-depressants and I know I am not depressed. I have to try harder to get back to that good place where my mind, body and spirit are in perfect harmony. I have felt this and know that it is possible.  

I have stated before that one of my treatments of choice is acupuncture. I highly recommend this for everyone. The treatment is not just for the fibro, it helps to calm my brain so I can relax. It helps to reset my energy and get things flowing again. For me twice a month is perfect and really helps. 

The past month and half has really open my eyes to the reality of Fibromyalgia and necessity of making lasting changes. Not just to compete in events, but to be able to compete in life. I am now taking a different approach by slowing down to enjoy the ride. Really focus on my goals and take each day as it comes. Life throws curves at us all the time and we need to be able to adjust and respond to them in a positive way. The goal is not to control every aspect of life, but to take the ups with the downs. The more positive we are the more we can achieve.

Thank you for reading.
Tabitha